there is something behind the pain

I feel not well today

I am sick

Actually this is my first time get sick in this town, the place where I continue my study. I am afraid right now because my parents aren't here to carry on me. I know now I have been grown up so I can take care of myself of course. But this is my first time. I have been worried about everything, my schedule, my task, all about my college. And of course my own self. Eventhough my sister in here I still scared. 

I was thingking that why I am afraid, I talk to myself that I am strong girl, I can pass this situation, I can handle it, I Can!!! Wah what a strong affirmation. This is only I can do to make me feel better.

After I read holiquran I feel better at least. I got a fever last noon. I just drink a glass of warm water, but I got no sweat. I'm feeling cold. I take my socks, t-shirt, and long pants so the cold can't get in my body. I can feel my hot breath. My head like got little bit dizzy. Hummm...😔

I know that I have a lot of mistakes and sins, so this is the way he gave me sick today to erase all of my sins. Hah I should not complain about this I should thanks to God. This situation make me realize that there is something bad i have done, so he reminded me, to fix me to change me be a kind of person. 

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