Everything's gonna be okay

 

Everything is gonna be okay

 

When I was younger, especially before go to college, I always wondering about the word ‘everything is gonna be okay’. Is that right? Is that truly happened? Is everything is gonna be okay in the end? I really curious about that. I was the person that always accept everything too much. So I expect too much to someone even for the things. I still young and don’t know about how world work exactly. I was just do the things I can do at the time, but with the wrong way. With the wrong perception.

 

If I had wrong words to someone, especially to my significant other, I felt like I am the horrible person ever in this world. I am the worst. Like I can’t do anything but regret. I blame to myself and think about that all the day until I found time to forget it, but it really took a long time and long experience. I think that world maybe just work like that, there must be still a lesson from those days, from the hard situation that I had been through.

 

I thought at the time that the word just by any mean, I mean it is just a word, and don’t have the impact to myself. I tried so hard to forget and to become really okay with that (my problem). I was struggling so much, I was trying to found my way, my new version of myself to become easy to whatever I’ve got. To just do simply what I usually do. And then with that, with whatever I have got whatever what I experienced I learn some lesson that a word ‘everything is gonna be okay’ is really be, is really there. I now like embrace myself and said ‘Hey don’t too much, is gonna be okay, people will forget about that, life goes on, you have to live in your life’ I said to myself like that, like everytime I put myself too much to something, I always remind that I can do this, I can pass this, and yeah time by time it will be memories. Time by time it will be forgotten. But I change a lot, I became a new person of myself because I really convince that everything that comes to our life have so much meaning have so much lesson that sometimes we can’t see and understand it. But we will, in the right time and in the right situation. Maybe if we are in that problem, or if we said the word, or behave really bad to someone, it can be difficult to us to forget, because we’re acting so bad. But maybe that’s the time we can open our hearts and our mind that if we feel bad so let’s ask apologize and try to explain, and the last but not least just believe “Everything is really gonna be okay” Don’t expect too much because life it’s not so serious. It just our thoughts that make us not try to trust to ourselves.

 

Remember, nothing it so serious in this world