Recognize around you

This days I have been watching people around me, and I don't know when I realize them so much. I have been working, hah not so serious like a worker, but I just help my parent's job. I am being a shopkeeper. In the morning exactly at 9 am I prepared my things, my laptop, phone, books, pen, sound speaker, and glasses to read. I always sit on the chair which I can see the people passed out in front of the shop. I keep asking my self what make me not realize my position then the people. I in my every single day, if I don't go to college I always sit and maybe just waiting for money, yeah because I am a seller right? but you know it's not easy like it seem, because every job or everything has risk. But we don't want to talk about that.

I can see their expression so much struggle. They work so hard. They always like that. And I have to realize that's what my parents do now, they work very hard everyday. I keep thinking right now, why I never realize how good my life is. How lucky I am. I still have a family beside me always around me, I just have a nice sit and then receive the money, how could it be I become lazy? Ahh I should slap my self and tell "Hey wake up, what are you doing right now? Can you see your mom and dad did all this to you?"

I open my eyes widely, I should not be like this. Like everyday I blame my self, my life. Why I'm not be prettier like her, why I'm not in her position, Why I can not be like them? I keep blaming about becoming the other. It's bad, really bad. And now I relief I am not like the person I was. Maybe this life always teach me about something I should know. I have to see others under me. That their life so difficult then me. I should be grateful. Everyone struggling find food to eat, find their happiness, find a way to see their son success. But I? Still have a current job, have a chance to school, can read a book, have a place to stay, have something that I can earn money, and the most importantly I still have a complete family. I'll say have a someone that always care, love, and taught you in your life that's really matter. Because if you look at someone that have no someone to rely on, that's really bad, really sad. We are human, right. We must need someone beside us.

And then that's make me think little while. Have I recognize everyone around me? Until today?

And then I answer. No I have not, But I will.

When see them come to buy, I am greeting them with smiling on my face, I treat them so good, I sometimes try to have a conversation and ask them about something, I do, I do that. I know that everyone have a bad day and I don't know when they will experience it, so I just want to be a part of them that make them feel good, because I just smile to them, hehe. And for my parents, I know I should help them. I know I should not say that I tired do this, I should not said that. I know we have a limitation, but I think said something like that it's not good. We don't know how tired, how struggle, how much their tears come down so much. And they did just because us so we can have a good life in the future. I have been teaching by them, that life always goes on. Sometimes we in the right position, sometimes we're not. Sometimes we feel happy and feel the empty, sad. Sometimes we can be rich, or maybe poor. That's the life work, that's how world work. There is always ups and downs.

So, together we see life, we see our life, and the people own. We have to not blame ourselves, blame everything that we haven't experience like most people. We see our live, we see deep down inside. What make us be happy and put much grateful that we can own our life. See people and recognize them help me so much to live my life, to be a happy person that I can own this, to be a new version of me. That not blame anymore.